How have you been?
My old best friend
It has been days, weeks, months since we have been this intimate
I missed you.
I would say I found better friends.
But then I wouldn't be sitting here
At 4am on a school day
looking at you.
I've been alright.
But I miss something.
There is something with my life right now
I miss that small space behind my ear that always aches
I miss that small sting.
That small voice that tells me i should just walk away
Dont get me wrong, im happy.
But I miss this.
at 4am on a school day.
I miss crying at night.
I miss feeling sad and knowing it is okay to be sad because I'm a sad person.
Nowadays I am a happy person
so it is just not okay to cry.
i miss the days it felt okay to be a sad person.
i hate being around people
and being a ''happy'' person.
I hate having people around.
I dont trust people
i miss having the moon as only friend
at least the moon wont betray me
the moon was always there for me
shining bright to light me up.