you left me in bright red darkness. it feels like a lonely and never ending void. it feels like hot coals from a fire that were spit on me and left to sizzle out. you left scars on me that no one else can see. from the hot coals you spit out of your mouth, to the dark seed you planted inside me that wells up into my throat when i least expect it.
your presence surrounds me like a swarm of angry bees. your words like their stingers cover my entire body. just when i think you’ve left, your walls start closing in on me. making me claustrophobic and gasping for air. i scream hoping that it will make you go away, put an end to this hell you are putting me through.
i soon realize that you are not there. you haven’t been there for a while, yet i still feel you here.