Sometimes I wish I could die
Just for the moment..
Just to escape the pain and the loneliness
Because if you die you don’t feel the emptiness
I wish I could die without the ripple effect
I wish I could die without passing the dread
I just wish I could leave temporarily...
Because maybe if I could have peace for a just a little while
An hour, a week, a month?
Maybe, just maybe then.. I’d be okay.
I just want to not breath for a moment
I want everything to be still
I want to feel the calm embrace of nothing
I want to be nothing just for a moment
Sometimes I want to hurt the person that cares the most, because they are the only one stopping me
If they don’t care then I definitely won’t care
Then I can just be nothing
Then I can be still
I can be silent