I never understood why I was looking into some of my "best work" and felt ashamed of it when five years ago I was so proud of it and even a year ago I was still proud. Not till today.
Today that I learned about The Dunning-Kruger Effect.
It basically says that people think they are better than what they actually are because they ignore how much they have to learn and that was me, I was proud of my "best work" for the longest.
So meditating about it I realize that the fact that now I am ashamed of my old work only means that I've progress.
And thinking about what I have done right I realize that is mostly because now I share my art, and I don't share it with the world, I don't share it in social media or at least I wasn't.
But I shared my art with a few friends, a few mentors but most importantly with haters of my art, people that made me feel insecure about it, that made me doubt my talent
and those people were the ones that helped me the most. Because I wanted to prove them wrong I ended up proving myself wrong and failing. But that's great.
Every time I fail now I just see progress. And I just think how a few years ago that piece could have been “ok” or even worse, it could have been my "greatest work". So please critique my art.
Please make me feel insecure, because only when I'm vulnerable and unsure I can make the truest progress.