I have a fear of perpetuous exhaustion. Tiredness running in my veins, keeping me still, unable. A constant feeling of being in debt with the world, of owing to others to become what they expect although it lacks in your essence.
But you know not even that deep inside that you are doomed to being a disaster, a trainwreck others can't keep themselves from looking at.
It's hard to accept you'll never be what you were supposed to.