I want to take all these feelings
And lock them all in a box.
A box from which these feelings can not escape and
H A U N T
He caused this to happen to me.
He caused this pain.
The fire to lash through my veins,
My tears to fall—hot and plentiful down my cheeks.
I despise how I can never
E S C A P E
This cycle, this never ending ring of
Lies, hatred, and torment.
He struck deep in my soul
A fear of ever trusting anyone, for a bigger fear
Of being hurt and broken more and more as each day passes.
They know my weaknesses.
He knows my weaknesses.
I just can't get the courage
To stand up and say
Because no matter how loud I scream, whether in
A G O N Y
D E F I A N C E,
It will always fall upon deaf ears,
Each time tightening the chain lock
On my heart.