Emily

I've never been so scared

Waiting for a crash to come

I was so used to people leaving

My Anorexia made sure that just about everyone did

This is different

I am different

I love her so much

I fear sometimes I don't deserve this

The gasping-for-air-laughter we share

The loud music we listen and sing badly along to-I know I can be myself

It's incredible how happy she makes me

I feel ill at the thought of losing her

I'm attached yet this is the healthiest relationship I've ever been in

It also feels like the most dangerous

Because there's so much at stake

She knows me well

And I'm in awe

So passionate/kind/funny/smart/supportive

I know she is in my life

She is meant to be

I hope she is meant to stay