She sat next to me
A demeanor more calmer than what was then,
With words being readied to be carried out,
I reminded myself again to harden my heart.
To not be swayed and to not shed a tear
To what she was saying. To pay no attention,
To be numb, and for everything to just stop.
As she envelopes her warmth around me,
The pools on my eyes starts to form,
And I remind myself again, harden your heart
And do not be swayed.
There are words said that were meant to
Comfort one, hurt one, and make on realize
The painful reality in this scorching world.
And also there are words
That you wouldn't want to hear especially
When it is coming out of the mouth of someone you love.
Because you know, even indirectly
They're telling you that they too
Are crying inside
All because of the chaos that you performed.
And it stabs you in the chest the most because
You can't do anything about
Because you hardened your heart
You inflicted pain upon yourself
And became numb.