Sadist

“Those who suffer the most in their life, are the wisest people. Find these people, for they need you as much as you need them” - Anonymous

Inflicting pain.

Inflicting pain. Not physical.

Inflicting pain. Not physical. But mental.

Struggling with quelling desires

Struggling with quelling desires Fixating on them and satiating them doesn’t help.

Like a clear pool of water:

With a drop of dye falling from above

With a drop of dye falling from above Like a swirling aberration in something that is pure.

The beginning is mesmerizing

The beginning is mesmerizing Even beautiful to the trained eye.

But the colors swirl.

But the colors swirl. And you let it wash over your body

But the colors swirl. And you let it wash over your body They swirl until eventually the color has changed the pure water.

Into something that looks completely new.

Into something that looks completely new. You take a sip. But nothing has changed...

New and known feelings melt,

New and known feelings melt, Like a spell the dye has quelled the idea of difference.

New and known feelings melt, Like a spell the dye has quelled the idea of difference. And you realize you are back to the beginning.

You hurt yourself to see if you feel.

Feel pain.

Feel pain. Internal pain.

Because no one else will inflict it.

AJA