Questions For My 3am Self. -Aleks

Are you okay with them keeping you up this late? Are you okay with them eating you up at this time? Are you okay with them still following your thoughts? Are you okay with them being the cause of your headache?

Is it better for you to think of impossible scenarios? Is it better for you to get your hopes up in such a way? Is it better for you to get caught up in other people’s mess? Is it better for you to think about others and disregard yourself?

How are you going to keep this up? How are you going to please everyone and make them happy? How are you going to fix yourself overnight? How are you going to pretend that this is normal?

Do you want to forget? Do you want to remember? Do you want to stay up? Do you want to sleep?

Here’s to another night of not resting. Let these questions thaw you as more arise with each passing minute. Goodnight, youthful head that rots away.