As an honor roll student, I always had the answers
The derivative of a function?
The capital of Syria?
The definition of the word "ballast?"
Piece of cake
But "Will you marry me?"
Now that's a question I don't have the answer to
You can argue that I should've seen it coming
We were together for five years, just bought a house together, already have a dog...
But it's not that
A part of me did know it was coming
But I didn't really think about what it meant
You know, being somebody's wife
Me? A wife?
I feel far too young for that label
I'm still in school, even if it is grad school
And I know it's you
And you're so wonderful and perfect and all I could ask for
But really, forever?
How can we say forever?
My parents said that
And look what happened
20 years and three kids later, they're divorced
It's not that I don't love you
I do, with every part of my being
But a wedding?
Declaring forever in front of everybody we know and love?
How do we know we're not dooming it?
Maybe it'd be easier to just stay where we're at
Not change anything
Just keep going on
But then I think of having kids
And the word husband
I don't have the answer
And that's a scary feeling
I don't know what married life would be like, or a wedding for that matter
I don't know how you get used to wearing the ring and having a spouse
But I do know I love you
And that we'll figure it out together
So after pause a moment too long