I’m not a suicidal person. But sometimes I’d look at myself in the eye and wonder: What if?
I’m not a suicidal person.

But sometimes I’d look at myself in the eye and wonder:

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akira
akiraBright kid, dark eyes.
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It’s 2 AM and nothing has been okay for a while.

I’m not a suicidal person. But sometimes I’d look at myself in the eye and wonder: What if?

What if I just dropped everything and took my own life, just like that?

Because hey, it’s so much easier.

Instant relief, instant gratification.

Like a drug I’d take at every end of the day just to remember a semblance of what it’s like to feel alive,

Instead of swallowing a bullet everyday like some sort of vitamin pill, hoping that each gulp down my throat would finally be the last.

Because I don’t owe the world anything. Why should I?

Why do I have to prove myself to it?

Why do I have to crawl and fight and persevere to get to where I am when other people can just waltz right in and get the same things I’m struggling so hard to grasp?

It’s not fair.

It’s not fucking fair.

And I am so,

fucking,

tired.

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