I wish I let myself be a kid.

I know it’s not entirely my fault, all these things that happened to me but, still.

Still.

I wish I stayed in the playground a little longer, talked to kids my age more.

I wish I didn’t have to force myself to grow up so fast.

I wish I let myself have fun out of sheer want instead of doing it just to spite someone in a fit of anger.

I wish I didn’t have to be brave all the time.

I wish I let myself be afraid, and not feel weak for it.

But most of all, more than anything, I wish I was kinder to myself.

Because I know the world doesn’t bow to anyone. I can’t wish for it to be kinder to me.

But, god.

I wish I was.