I am a very emotional person.
But the crazy thing about me is...
I turn every emotion into anger.
Because I cant handle anything else.
I cant handle anger either.
It swells inside of me.
To the point where I am shaking and urging to punch something.
And then I find a way to get rid of that anger.
And then I am empty.
I can't feel anything.
Not even when I touch something.
It's like my entire existence has left my body.
And that's terrifying.
I try talking about it...
But no one can help.
No one knows what to do or say.
And I'm alone.
Which makes everything worse.
Because I'm more scared of being alone than I am of anything.
And I turn that fear into anger.
And I'm back at square one.