Hey, i love you you know na why did you felt as if using a blade to feel your pain is the only way you can feel the warmth of your tears again,
i know life has always been hard for you, your parents left the world before they can teach you how to live your life ,
before they can sing you lullaby,
before they can braid your beautiful hair,
before they can dress you up and send you to school,
before they can...
I know it's a pain i could never understand and in your mind you feel like you couldn't ever fill the void either,
but you know, you have a life now you have a chance to make you dreams true it's so hard, but its a wall you need to break to have a fresh start..
You have forgotten how to cry to scream, but why to use the blade in your hand to bleed to feel the pain buried deep within to feel the tears you have long deprived of to douse in..
My love when you do so, i can't explain how much pain i feel every single cut in your hand, the scars make me bleed every-time when i see them i feel as if i am too bleeding out with you..
Nothing breaks me more but your this habit of not saying not to express some of your emotion that you bury deep within your deceptive ability to hide your pain,
you never say anything when you are hurt you never complain, sometimes i see them in your eyes and sometimes even i fail to understand.
In the moments of burning solitude when you are hurt, when you are alone, afraid to do so but bounded by the sense of relief using the dreadful blade on your hands afterwards wearing long sleeves to somehow trying to hide them in.
Baby i love you more than anything i can ever imagine of you are the one i can live my whole life without feeling another thing, please listen to me and give up this habit of cutting as for the pain is not only yours i bleed with you, the scars are not only in your hands my heart is also getting full of them it's a pain i don't know how long i can withstand..
But when i see you laughing whole heartily in joy i forget everything else let alone the pain...
Please show that you can get over with this as for this time you are not alone i promise no more pain you will feel as life has already tested you as hard as it can, now you can live your life as a new start of all the beautiful and joyful things just take a deep breath within and allow your new life to begin...