As a young girl I looked in the mirror And hated what I saw.
Every flaw was obvious Not a hint of beauty In my big innocent blue eyes.
I believed as I grew I would be just as beautiful As all the women in my life Who were like gems to me.
When I grew up My height stopped Before I was even twelve Five feet, that’s all I got Just enough to sit in the front seat.
My body gave me curves Big boobs that weight my chest down Big hips for babies I would never have Thighs that held all my fat And a tiny waist that could not hide My growing disgust for this body of mine.
Girls loved to stare Called me fat and giggled with glee I was tortured in my PE class My teacher still gives me a heart attack Even when I’m almost twenty-two.
I hated this body of mine I called myself nothing more Than a worthless pig I ate away my stress And gained weight from distress.
One day I realized I let it go too far Tears of horror of what I had done To this beautiful body of mine Abusing food for self-hatred I stood tall then and made a vow To make it right again.
Fifty pounds is what I lost But I still see the fat girl Staring back at me I love my curves now But my god has it been hard To become the woman I am today.