It always starts like this:

It always starts like this: 20 more minutes in bed.

It always starts like this: 20 more minutes in bed. I don’t feel like leaving bed.

It always starts like this: 20 more minutes in bed. I don’t feel like leaving bed. I’ll hangout with you tomorrow.

and suddenly;

and suddenly; I haven’t left my house.

and suddenly; I haven’t left my house. I’m still so tired.

and suddenly; I haven’t left my house. I’m still so tired. “but you sleep so much,

and suddenly; I haven’t left my house. I’m still so tired. “but you sleep so much, baby?”

and suddenly;

and suddenly; It’s only weed.

and suddenly; It’s only weed. It’s only one beer.

and suddenly; It’s only weed. It’s only one beer. i’m too tired

and suddenly;

and suddenly; I think I took too much.

and suddenly; I think I took too much. Am I dying?

and suddenly; I think I took too much. Am I dying? i’m ok.

Am I dying?

stronger,

stronger, stronger,

stronger, stronger, more.

stronger, stronger, more. more.

stronger, stronger, more. more. i haven’t showered in a week.

stronger, stronger, more. more. i haven’t showered in a week. fine.

i’ve cried every night.

i’ve cried every night. it hurts so bad,

i’ve cried every night. it hurts so bad, I can’t live like this.

I can’t live like this.

It’s only a razor,

I can’t live like this.

it won’t hurt that bad.

I can’t live like this.

Why?

Why? why doesn’t it?

Why? why doesn’t it? why is the pain still there?

“I’m sorry,

“I’m sorry, I overdosed.

“I’m sorry, I overdosed. - I tried, please,

“I’m sorry, I overdosed. - I tried, please, forgive me.”

- “mom, I think I need help”