my mind causes me so much pain at times and harm is how i feel i'll get better.
but the harm never comes.
i hold myself back from grabbing a knife and cutting myself whenever i do dishes.
i know im a mistake, and i get it rubbed in my face every day.
my siblings are pure assholes to me and remind me of how much of a mistake i am.
and thats why i have true friends like @midnightstars.
i had 3 friends like that on an app called funimate.
guys, if you're there and reading this, i miss you and love you.
you know who you are.
im sorry for leaving you.
most people are huge assholes to me, and my dad found out about how i vent about this once.
he had me go to therepy for 3-4 months because of it.
i wish we werent quarentined right now because all i need is a hug.
someone who would hug and kiss me all fucking day.
but no one would ever do that for this ugly ass bitch.
and now here's some song lyrics to make me feel better-
"life's too short to worry about things that we got wrong, so hug all your friends and let them know you're not letting go, no I won't let go, oh-oh." hug all ur friends - cavetown
"some mistakes get made, that's alright, that's okay. you can think that you're in love when you're really just in pain." moral of the story - ashe
"are you dead? sometimes I think I'm dead 'cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head, but I don't wanna fall asleep just yet." this is home - cavetown
sorry to dump this on you guys.
i just needed a vent.
love you all, my shining stars.~