My therapist told me to draw my life today,
I drew a beautiful tree - in the fall, to me, Fall represents rebirth, that, all the bad things happening to me in my life right now,
would come back to me in good ways, The stump of the tree representing stability, that as long as I remain mentally stable, I won't go crazy now,
and I'll be normal throughout this period of unbearable existence.
I drew a field of grass, dying and patchy in some places, but growing.
This, to me, represents that right now I'm going through a rough patch, and so is my family, but I'm pulling through it very slowly.
beyond that, I drew a river. Rushing, and beating against the stubborn rocks.
This symbolizes the past I'd rather leave behind me, but in this particular drawing, it came back in a mean way,
the beating harshness of the water onto the rocks represents when my father used to get into physical fights with my elder brothers and my mother, and occasionally, even me.
finally, I had drawn a sun that had been in an eclipse phase, I told him that this represented my intense fear of abandonment,
and how it was preventing me from having any true happiness in this life that I am living.
A fear provoked by my father who was always angered by something, or someone, who always threatened to leave constantly.
Things will get better for me, I'm aware.