Posted by: XOShadow Enjoy!
Slowly bending, and I'm bound to break
Slowly killing, and I cannot shake
that I will not make it
And everyday I have to go on faking
That I'm fine, and I cannot take it.
I want a home of my own
A place to go when nobody else is home
I keep fighting but these demons inside
They eat me alive
Put them away but they cannot hide
Always on my mind
Even when I try they are always there
I gasp but I can't find air
The nightmares they never go away
Every night I'm stuck and I can't be saved
I fuck up everything good in my life
I should be use to it now
but I cannot find the peace I need to be able to shine
I do it to myself and I know that this time
Somehow can't grow my wings to fly
I don't know how to be alone
or how to run the show
I can't even make my own decisions!
I know I have to do something to finally be okay
Is it go home? or just stay away?
"Take it day by day"
At least that's what they say
"Keep your head up and just shake it off"
My head may be hard but my heart is soft
Trying so hard to get back on my feet
But every time I end up hitting my knees
I feel so weak
I've made it through so much worse than this
But I cannot miss
All the feelings that I do not belong
Sing the chorus and they cut the song
It's my life and I'm losing control !
Spinning in circles
and I can't find home
Oh wait, I had it
but now it's gone
Slowly bending and I'll prolly break
Better bring the tape
But I'll be okay
It's the only option at this point
It's time for me to reach out
and grab control