You look different than what I pictured
Not in a bad way, just different
I never expected to hold you.
Never expected those eyes,
Those innocent eyes
Filled with wonder, potential and everything that's good
I'm going to ruin you.
I'm lost in every sense of the word,
Lost in those eyes that gleam like the stars
I'm going to extinguish that spark
And you're going to hate me
But, I don't want to ruin you
But what else is going to happen,
I don't know what to do and you can't tell me what to do
What do you want?
What does it mean?
They told me I'd know what to do once you came
But I don't
You're still crying.
How do I make it stop?
No one else is here to tell me what to do
It's just us
You, me and the river running down your face
I've ruined them already and it hasn't even been a day
Wait, you stopped crying.
You're grasping unto me as if I'm your world
Hmm, five little fingers wrapped around my thumb
I'm a mother; I'm no longer a girl