They're eating away at me,
And I don't think I can take it for much longer.
Shouting in my brain, truths that only escape in twisted lies.
These truths aren't scandalous,
Or even very interesting.
Instead, they carry weights of sadness,
Pain sitting inside words.
Every time I try to let them go,
Deciding to morph into other, twisted words,
Words that aren't true.
Cries for help turn into reassurance.
My mind is begging and pleading for me to let go,
But I can't.
I can't let go.
I've built up so many words,
So many secrets,
That releasing them will cause those around me too much pain.
I won't put anyone else through them.
No one deserves the weight of my secrets.
I shall have them piled onto my soul as I learn to walk with them.
Because no matter how hard I try,
No matter how loud my voice,
No matter how empty my eyes,
The truth turns to lies as it escapes my lips,
And secrets remain hidden.