I need the right pieces to build a friend,
Someone that'll listen to me until the end.
An apparatus of a human,
A framework of fragments and parts...
For it seems something is wrong with me.
No matter how hard I try,
No matter how much I work,
No one seems to stick around.
I beg and plead on my knees,
Crying out, "Please don't leave me..."
I'll do anything to keep them around,
And yet they're gone before I know it.
Maybe I can build a friend.
Pieces falling from my fingertips,
Seems even what I create cannot stay.
I feel as if I owe it to them,
Like my friendship is a chore.
I'm constantly trying to keep them happy.
I'll laugh at any joke and say any word just to make them stay.
Why do I have to
Why do I have to c
Why do I have to c h
Why do I have to c h a
Why do I have to c h a n
Why do I have to c h a n g
Why do I have to c h a n g e
Why do I have to c h a n g e ?
Is who I am not enough?
Must my personality die?
Should I be looking for my own apparatus,
And rebuild myself?
I'll turn into what everyone wants,
But even that isn't enough.
Somehow they all still leave me...
I think I'm destined to be alone.
Sorry for such a sad poem, I'm just feeling sort of down. Getting emotions out through poetry has always been my go to, I hope you don't mind. Thanks for reading!- Kitty