My old beliefs and new ones are starting to clash. I want to change, but I keep fighting it. I'm scared of what I will turn in to.
My old self thinks I'm changing for the worse while the new me, the "awakened" me, believes I'm becoming more "human". I'm scared of who I am. I truly might be a terrible human being.
But, wouldn't I be doing myself a disservice if I keep lying to everyone and denying who I am?