Can we just hit pause for a second?
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Just my anxiety’s in life, coming up on 25 and the feeling of life passing me by

Can we just hit pause for a second?

Stumbling through the years, plastering on a smile, a child inside pretending to be an adult.

Remember wearing your mothers shoes, 10 sizes too big, her dress hanging on your waif-like frame, lipstick smeared around your lips.

Remember wearing your mothers shoes, 10 sizes too big, her dress hanging on your waif-like frame, lipstick smeared around your lips. Except now you look in the mirror and the too-tight heels create blisters, your dress fits snug and the bold red lips fake an unsure confidence.

The childish eyes staring back at you a contrast to your image.

Questions you can’t answer barrage from all angles, sometimes from within.

Questions you can’t answer barrage from all angles, sometimes from within. “Your brother’s getting married next week! It’s your turn next, right?”

Questions you can’t answer barrage from all angles, sometimes from within. “Your brother’s getting married next week! It’s your turn next, right?” “I’ve seen your old friend from school, 2 kids now! That’ll be you soon, right?”

“What about your career? What about a house?”

“What about your career? What about a house?” “Hey you were going to travel the world, right? How’s that going?”

“What about your career? What about a house?” “Hey you were going to travel the world, right? How’s that going?” ... I’ve barely left the house, Susan. But thanks.

Your social media littered with fresh new babies, brand new cars and standard ‘posing in front of our new house’ images.

Your social media littered with fresh new babies, brand new cars and standard ‘posing in front of our new house’ images. With each new post you see, your old friend anxiety rears it’s head. Look at all your peers, they’re succeeding, why haven’t you reached these milestones yet?

Remember thinking how people in their 20s had their life all figured out? How one day you’d reach that mystical age where life’s secrets suddenly unveil themselves?

Then you realise you’re solidly in your mid-20s and you’re still a child dressing up in grown up clothing, faking your way through your day-to-day, still waiting for that secret.

Then you realise you’re solidly in your mid-20s and you’re still a child dressing up in grown up clothing, faking your way through your day-to-day, still waiting for that secret. Too afraid to close your eyes, afraid of 30, 40, 60 creeping up on you. Afraid of looking back and wondering what at all you’ve achieved.

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