Ive felt this way
Ive felt this way before
So why do I feel like ive lost a war?
This is different
Something that I can't seem to ignore
I feel like I can be myself
And it isn't like what ive had with anyone else
I put out my most inner thoughts
And you accept them without regards to the cost
I don't know what to do
Or how to feel
And despite this intense warmth in my chest
Im putting myself to the test
How long can I hold out?
Before I get too overwhelmed?
Before I get condemned?
Not just for me
But for you
And It hurts
Why can't I just stop being scared for once?
Why is it so hard for me to trust?
Maybe its because I still have these cuts...
The cuts that we both share
Cuts to our hearts
Cuts that faded into scars
When we went to each other for support
Alarms going off in my mind to tell me to abort
But I refuse
I will not give in and let it be cut short
This isn't new
But this is different
This is completely different...
This is a different war
And I know I can endure more
Im sorry Im so scared
But I swear
I will win
We will win
I can feel it within