I feel it
I feel the emptiness inside
My last meal echoes in my body
Reminding me of my guilty pleasure
The clock catches my eye
Telling me it’s been 7 hours since I last ate my share
I hate it
But I love it
I hate the way I do this to myself
I love the thought of not shying away when eyes scan my body
They shame my body
I shame it too
But you know what?
I’m NOT ashamed of wishing my body was slimmer
And I’m NOT ashamed of starving myself senseless to get there
I’ll do it everyday until I get there
And I will relish each time my stomach pleads for more nourishment
Because I know that each day I endure these starving pains
I am one step closer to being done shaming the body I live in.
~~ Hey y'alllll Quick statistic note: 94% of teenage girls and 65% of teenage boys have been body shamed.
~~ While 50% of teenage girls and 30% of teenage boys use unhealthy weight control behaviors
~~ Just a thought: I know none of you lovely Commaful users don't do this, but despite what others say, I don't care if you shame your own body (because hey, I do it too) just don't do it to others.
~~ There's a huuuuuuuuge difference between telling yourself you're physically negative looking and having someone else tell you that.
Correct me if I'm wrong but When people say things like that, it just makes you feel ugly, disgusting, and hateful towards yourself. Meanwhile, when you tell yourself that, although it may be a kind of mental self harm, you aren't under the pressure of knowing that someone actually thinks that of you.
~~ I dunno. I'm just ranting at this point.
~~ If anyone asks, You didn't hear this lecture from me. Love—don't hate. Peace.