I give brightest smiles and cheer on my friends But there’s nobody for me in the end
I’m alone here somehow Just existing but not living I can’t keep numbing the pain I cry when nobody’s hearing
Who am I to say I’m fine Who am I to say it’s alright I’m not lying I’m just hiding Why is that me? I don’t know i even just ask why
why? Questions can linger at the top of my fingers Yet I’ll keep wearing this mask even if it’s made of glass even if the risk of it shattering is close to happening
The night is just silent she can’t even fight it I’m close my lungs to just screaming and leaving everything behind Hoping I’ll shut off power down and go to sleep But that’s the simple peace I can only dream
so what can I say? Why? I’m alone I can say this because during night and day I can turn and find nobody when I wish that somebody Would take notice of an insecure girl who will enter the real world Am I selfish?
Notice that I am scared, unprepared Mentally broken down inside but outside is the shell that physically just smiles I feel like a doll patched up but still just existing Hoping somebody will take notice but that’s just wishing
Help me I feel alone got people around me but it’s still myself alone I got nobody beside me yet I stand beside everybody I feel so alone I am so alone Why am I alone?