One Week Later: "Heather, I had a shirt lying out what happened to it?" "I'm wearing it." "What the hell!"
"Well Levi, you won't let me go more than five feet on my ankle, so I can't go wash my stuff...what else am I supposed to wear?" The bathroom door creaks open and Levi pokes his head out, raising an eyebrow.
"Levi, you're impossible!" "Yeah. Can you get me another shirt, please?" "The closet is like six feet away, that's a whole foot farther than I'm allowed."
"Since when do you do what you're told?" "Since now." "You just want to see me in a towel..." "YOU just want to see me in nothing but your shirt..."
"Fair enough. Will you grab the shirt, please?" "Well hold on, this cast is a pain in the butt." "YOU'RE a pain in the butt, Heather." "Best pain in the butt you've ever had..."
He grins, thinking about the last couple of months. 'You have no idea how true that...oh wow....how can someone look so damn adorable in just a shirt?' He feels almost giddy at the sight; that is, until I start hobbling towards the closet. Sick waves of guilt hit him, and he feels miserable all over again. 'your fault...'
A moment later, I pop back into view, heading for the bathroom. I hand him the shirt, and we stand there for a moment just looking at each other awkwardly. Blushing, he shuts the door. "Be out in a bit."
Giggling, I head back to bed. Ten minutes later, Levi comes out of the bathroom. "I don't understand why you couldn't have just got your pants on, then came and got a shirt yourself."
He pauses before answering, realizing that is exactly what he should have done in the first place. "My tunnel vision demanded a shirt." I bust out laughing, and confused; Levi lies down on the bed, rolling over to face me. "What's so funny?"
"You, Levi." Rolling his eyes, but secretly pleased he could make me laugh he reaches out putting a hand over mine. "Are you going to be fine for a couple hours?"
"I'll be alright. You have things to do. Go." I wake up a few hours later to see Levi tossing a few bags on the bed next to me. "What's all this?" He shrugs. "You need more clothes..." Giggling, I grab the first bag. "Presents....!"
"I realize nothing I bought you will have half your chest pouring out of it like normal, but I hope it will suffice." Flinging my arms around him in a big hug, I give him a kiss on the cheek. "No, this is great thank you!"
Squirming away awkwardly he mumbles, "No big deal....get some rest." He sits at his desk, wanting to get some of this paperwork done in a reasonable amount of time, but all he can really think about is how happy I was, and the small nagging thought that if I had the chance, no matter what he did now, I would leave him.....
Levi's Journal: Is she really that interested in seeing me in a towel?? Based on her blush, I'd say yes and i can't deny how ridiculously happy that makes me feel. Happy? Me? Impossible, you would think but it's true. For the first time in years I am genuinely happy. Someday, I am going to work up the courage to tell her this, even if she straight up laughs.
Oh god, what if she laughs?! The way she threw her arms around me and lightly pecked my cheek made me feel like attacking a horde of titans with my bare hands just to protect her. And especially if she'd ask me to! God, I sound like one of the stupid lovestruck cadets!
I know that someday a portal is going to open up, and she's going through it in a blink of an eye. This hurts to think about, and I try to deny the sick feeling in my gut, but it's probably true. Why would she stay? What could I possibly offer her?
Heather's Journal: I woke up to bags being dropped on the bed next to me. Presents! Lots and lots of presents!! I admit, I definitely needed more clothing, it's not like I packed for this journey ya know? But oh my gosh, the stuff in these bags! And hahaha, me in a DRESS? That has never been done before, but I absolutely love them!
This red one, it's perfect with the gold trim! and this necklace, it matches it perfectly! How did he guess my size? They fit like they were made for me! To be honest, I would wear a fucking potato sack if he gave it to me! Hahaha his reaction when I thanked him! All awkward and embarrassed and weird....LOVED it!And now I'm
remembering the reason all this gift giving started. Levi in a towel!!!!!! GULP! 3 weeks later: Entering the lab, I find Hanji deeply immersed in one of her strange and confusing experiments. "Hi Hanji!" Looking up, her eyes widen with delight.
"Heather! The cast is gone, and wow!...that dress..." "Do I look okay?" I ask, spinning for her (and admittedly my) benefit. "You look amazing!"
"But is it too much?" I spin around once more to give her a good look. "I feel like this is more of an evening thing...not like a fancy ball, but over the top for you know...Tuesday?" Hanji laughs outright. "No not at all...where did you get it? That's not cheap...." Blushing, I feel like I don't know how to answer.
"Did LEVI buy that for you?" "Don't make a big deal, I was sorely lacking in clothes as it is." "Heather, I wouldn't make a big deal if he bought you some basic stuff....I'm willing to bet that everything he got you is just as expensive as this..."
"You're making me feel awkward." "Why?" "Because I don't deserve anything THAT special..." I lower my gaze, face reddening.
"Well that's not up to you to decide. Only he's going to decide your worth to him. Maybe now you can see that he really does like you, instead of making up silly excuses for his behavior." "Hanji..."
"Heather, YES. Do you know how many silly little girl fantasies Levi has crushed, knowingly or not? To think, all this time the secret to his heart was to make him think he hates you...Poor Petra." Hanji laughs. "Who's Petra?"
"Nevermind. The point is, he's never given anyone the time of day. Then along comes Heather. To be fair, you were pretty much forced on each other, but a lot of us saw this coming from day one and it's the best thing to happen in....forever.
Levi would not buy you one dress like that, let alone however many he did buy if he didn't feel something....Are you going to tell me that necklace you're wearing that CONVENIENTLY matches that dress is just something you happened to have in your trusty backpack?"
"Nooo..." "You make him happy, and it's a wonder to witness. Now, I know you didn't get all prettied up for me, so go find your man and make his jaw drop." Laughing, I give her a quick hug and leave. He turns immediately at the sound of the door opening.
"Hey, where have you b-" The rest of his words sit lodged in his throat, refusing to come out. Gulping, I take a hesitant step closer. "Levi? Is something wrong?"
"No...no, everything is fine....you...you look nice." "Really?" Feeling doubtful, I look down at the floor. Lifting my chin to look in my eyes, he smiles. "You're utterly amazing, stop doubting. Now, do you want to take a walk with me? It's a nice night, and I'd like to get out of here for awhile."
We walk in silence for a long time, neither of us in a rush to spoil it with words. Levi finally breaks the silence, hesitantly. "Have you considered what you would do if another portal opened up?" "I...I haven't given it any real thought....I don't think portals just open up all willy-nilly."
"So you don't think it was an accident?" "I don't necessarily think it was on purpose either. I guess I won't know unless it happens." "Oh." Feeling a little downcast, he says nothing more until we arrive home. "Are you coming to bed?"
"Well, my leg is better so I didn't think you'd want me hogging up your bed anymore..." "Heather, I've been sleeping next to you for over a month now and to be honest, I sleep a little better with you next to me, so please come to bed."
"Maybe it's just psychological. It's not me per se, but more the fact of another person being there. Comforting to your subconscious. Go snuggle with Erwin, let's see how he reacts!" I say, following him to the bedroom.
Levi laughs outright at this, getting a rather hilarious image in his head. "I don't think he'd appreciate that." As we both settle in, and Levi turns off the light I roll over towards him and he feels my hand gently touch him.
"Levi?" "Yes?" "If it answers your earlier question...based on how I feel right now, I don't want to be anywhere else..." Glad I can't see the ridiculously cheesy expression on his face, he pulls me close and drifts off to sleep.
Levi's Journal: She's happy. Happy with me! ME! This isn't real. I mean, how could I possibly make her happy?? I'm not that guy. I WANT to be that guy, but that's never been the case and here I am now, lying here holding her and feeling like the absolute shit! (mentally puffing out my chest) I know I'm going to fuck this up. Just watch.
Heather's Journal: I kinda want to know who this Petra girl is? was? At any rate everything Hanji said to me today made me feel rather good about things. I didn't really think about why Levi bought me all this stuff other than the practical reasons.
But she's right. No guy would do that if he didn't care about a girl. I don't even want to guess at the cost of that necklace alone! And it makes me feel awkward, like I don't deserve all this. Hanji thinks otherwise.
Well regardless, I always stumble back on feeling like I'm just his "chore" and I suppose it's stupid but I can't help it. Especially with how moody he's been. But I meant it when I told him I didn't want to be anywhere else. As confusing as he is to me at times, right here is where I want to be.