9 Times I Still Wasn't Over You
9 Times I Still Wasn't Over You poetry stories
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You broke my heart.

9 Times I Still Wasn't Over You

by wethedreamers

Waking up to a colder bed, and a lack of body heat.

Reaching over, feeling nothing, and you weren't next to me.

Dear God, I couldn't breathe.

Turning on the coffee pot, cooking breakfast as it brewed.

The sinking revelation as I set the table for two.

I just don't know what to do.

Radio blaring as I got in the car. I didn't even lower it.

I was waiting for the protest where you would've fought me over it.

It's sobering.

Weeks were passing, people asking, "Is everything alright?"

I was recovering every moment, but they all relapsed me every time.

I cry and cry and cry.

When I went to a party, and someone said to me, "Hi."

They asked if I was busy next weekend, and I ultimately lied.

I tried.

It's been about a year. That beach I avoided? I went back.

But the water almost drowned me when I remembered your arms around me and I had a panic attack.

I collapsed.

And even when I came to, I ran quickly from the shore.

The lifeguard and his concerned eyes... My god. They looked like yours.

I don't swim anymore.

I moved across the country trying to find a silver lining.

But the weight of the guilt crushed me when I realized, if you wanted to, you couldn't find me.

I don't know if you're even trying.

They said time would heal all wounds...

But I'm still as broken as your vows.

All these times I wasn't over you.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight... and now.

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