9 Times I Still Wasn't Over You
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wethedreamersAnd we're a million miles away.
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You broke my heart.

9 Times I Still Wasn't Over You

by wethedreamers

Waking up to a colder bed, and a lack of body heat.

Reaching over, feeling nothing, and you weren't next to me.

Dear God, I couldn't breathe.

Turning on the coffee pot, cooking breakfast as it brewed.

The sinking revelation as I set the table for two.

I just don't know what to do.

Radio blaring as I got in the car. I didn't even lower it.

I was waiting for the protest where you would've fought me over it.

It's sobering.

Weeks were passing, people asking, "Is everything alright?"

I was recovering every moment, but they all relapsed me every time.

I cry and cry and cry.

When I went to a party, and someone said to me, "Hi."

They asked if I was busy next weekend, and I ultimately lied.

I tried.

It's been about a year. That beach I avoided? I went back.

But the water almost drowned me when I remembered your arms around me and I had a panic attack.

I collapsed.

And even when I came to, I ran quickly from the shore.

The lifeguard and his concerned eyes... My god. They looked like yours.

I don't swim anymore.

I moved across the country trying to find a silver lining.

But the weight of the guilt crushed me when I realized, if you wanted to, you couldn't find me.

I don't know if you're even trying.

They said time would heal all wounds...

But I'm still as broken as your vows.

All these times I wasn't over you.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight... and now.

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5 months agoReply
@tdog16 Honestly, whatever outcome that you THINK happened is what happened. Poetry is your own interpretation. ;)

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5 months agoReply
Wow!!! So emotional 😭 🤧😵🤓😨😬😁😃🤣😶👍😄😶😉🙃🙂😨😂 although I would like to ask because my brain is fried....what actually happened to the girl or guy? (I wasn't paying attention to gender😬.) Did they leave her in death or by breaking up? I know it's not rlivant to the story I just want to know what direction you were trying to flow in.

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8 months agoReply
@aqsamustafa Thank you; I had forgotten I wrote this. :)

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8 months agoReply
Wow... that was really heartbreaking. Enough to make one want to shed a tear or two in sympathy. Count me one of them...

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a year agoReply
@reasonsofbeing :( That's such a heartbreaking realization. I'm sorry you know it so well. I hope you heal a little easier.

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a year agoReply
@wethedreamers and thinking perhaps you've moved on, but then realizing it's just misguided need for the other person...Timothy Conigrave (an actor and writer) wrote about how you never really get over your true, it's just misguided towards others and I relate to that ):

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a year agoReply
@reasonsofbeing Guilt, confusion, and also the simultaneous feelings of both numbness and pain at the same time. It's almost never pretty.

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a year agoReply
@wethedreamers I associate guilt and confusion with heartbreak (:

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a year agoReply
@reasonsofbeing I always thought that guilt and confusion went hand in hand with love and hopefulness, so thank you for soothing my mind of hoping someone could understand that.

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a year agoReply
The thought of feeling guilty when moving away, and wanting the other person to find you but not knowing if they're even trying....I relate so strongly to this!