by Westley Nash
All I've ever wanted is to feel balanced.
To achieve a stable emotional level,
where the ups and downs are more manageable.
Emerging and fading like the sun as it rises and falls along its daily cycle;
steady and predictable.
for I have always faced such extreme emotional shifts
more akin to the explosive acceleration and sharp braking of a race car in pursuit of its rival!
Where every day wakes as a battle,
never knowing if I'll be full of energy and celebrating life,
or cursing myself and wishing I was long dead in the dirt!