// seven things i have learned from waking up at five in the morning //
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weeklybrent // you should be loving someone //
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// my love exists in the brief amount of time between five and six in the morning //

// seven things i have learned from waking up at five in the morning //

*this is another poem meant to be a spoken word, so keep that in mind while reading please*

1. you do not exist. you are just a figment of dreams i have never dreamed and a piece of my distant past in a future that i do not think i will ever live in.

2. the sunrise is so much prettier in real life, from my bedroom window, when i am high on a dreamy state that is you. but i don’t dream. or get high.

but i get really sleepy sometimes because i sit up all night thinking about seeing you first thing in the morning.

3. i write more poems about you than anyone or anything else.

i stroke similes out of every strand of your hair, and i trace metaphors tattooed into your skin, like the roman numerals that you marked yourself with when you were eighteen.

i spend hours of sleepless nights writing you into existence so that you are the first thing i encounter the next morning.

4. i have never been more in love than i am every morning from five to six.

it is when i wake up to you sprawled across my bed, with your head on my chest, intertwining our heartbeats into a perfect union. it is when i can think about you effortlessly and interminably.

it is when my dad is in a sound sleep in the room over and i do not have to deal with him telling me i waste time on pointless things. you are not pointless. nor is my love.

i am in love with you and i want to spend every waking minute with you.

5. i have never been in love.

6. i do not know how you look, but i know we fit perfectly into a jigsaw puzzle that is missing a few pieces. i do not know whether to call you she, he, they, or something else, so i call you you.

but i know i love you. i love you so much that i never want anybody else’s oxygen in my system.

i love you so much and i want to be able to kiss you until we’re a mess of swollen lips, stolen kisses, and sweaty palms, but love nonetheless, at five in the morning.

i love you so much that i want to be able to spend the rest of the morning with you. that i want to be able to spend the rest of the day with you.

that i want to be able to spend the rest of the week with you. the month, the year, my life. i love you so much that i want to be able to spend all of eternity with only you.

i love you so much that i want to be able to love you. outside of my closet. and past six in the morning. possibly in front of my father, but we both know that is a bit of a stretch.

and i do not know if i will ever be able to do that because

7. you still do not exist.

but i still wake up at five in the morning, with just a sliver of hope left. one that i will never let go.

one that i know other people hold onto as well.

one that i am hoping no one ever lets go of.

*announcement* i am hoping to put up the answers to my q&a sometime this weekend, so anyone who would like to participate, please do. even if you have asked a question or more already, i would love to answer any more that you may have. there will be a link to it in the comments section

*update on book* i have decided to self-publish (idk if i said that already but yea), so i am currently putting the official book together and my best friend is still drawing pictures for it xx also, i am starting an instagram page soon, i will let you know more about that soon xx

*reminder* you can join my taglist at any time, just comment and i will add you right away xx love y'all sm and i hope y'all have a great rest of the day xx if you are having a rough day, please take a breath and let this be a reminder that you are enough. just take a break and do something you love to do xx stay safe xx

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