It struck me as a surprise I didn't see it coming
Brought up emotions , That were stored away deeply inside
It shocked me so much that I couldn't take it
I panicked and talked around it
But every word struck the nail of the head
My buttons got pressed, right on the point
couldn't talk around it.
I tried to walk the way-away from the topic
But it was like a gymnast jumping back in to it
a snake wrapping and strangling the victim and my thoughts with it.
even now at night i can't sleep my heart stops beating and starts pumping
It burns hot red, like metal i have to strike.
It hurts, it hurts, It hurts, why was it said
I didn't want to hear it, now its glued to my eyes
it sticks too much, used to fall down like oil
now melted to my soul.
I tried drinking but that didn't help
Deeper I am sinking.
I went away and again i want to go away.
I forgot and now i remember the foolish, silly thought.
the one that once brought me happiness
now makes me miserable-vomit covered dizziness.
I cry i scream i scratch my soul with a steel beam
i want to punch the walls of the box i'm in
Tear my hair out, rip the eyes out and sew my eyes shut
I put the coals on my palms to forget it
Cut off my fingers so i cant play anymore
Take it all away just don't make me resurface
It has to stay down i don't want to feel
yes its coming back Don't say it!
why did you say it? Why?
I just can't... Ok i give.. I'm gone..