For a long time, I considered myself brave.
And I am.
I remained oblivious that I, like every other human alive,
am capable of fear.
I thought because I could squish a spider
or wouldn't squeal when I saw a bee that I had more courage than others my age.
That being able to fly on an airplane comfortably
or being wonderfully pleasant on extreme roller coasters, obviously showed my boldness and excellency.
That not crying when change came my way,
but welcoming it with open arms meant I somehow automatically became stronger, more powerful than others like me.
But all of this lived far from the truth.
I did not stand above or below anybody. We are all the same, as I have fears too.
I am afraid of failure.
I am afraid of getting a bad grade, of disappointing others, of not losing that extra 10 lbs, of not being able to remember my lines for a play or the dance counts for a routine.
I am scared of destroying what is already something.
I am scared of the concept of time travel, bringing back the dead, and changing anything the universe as already created.
I am fearful of certain people.
I am fearful of people who are dishonest, spoiled, and deceiving. I am fearful of people with no morals or can't think for themselves. I am fearful of non feminists and potential predators.
I am frightened by cockroaches and rats
( unhygienic creatures they are )
But most of all,
I think I am terrified of not living an extraordinary life.
I am terrified of not being able to see the world,
of not learning the things I want to learn, of doing the things I want to do.
I am worried I will stay in one place forever.
That I will live an entire life without leaving my mark or making a difference, even if it's just in one person's life.
So yes, I am afraid of things like every other human being.
And, you know what? I'm okay with that. It gives me the motivation to do things with my life and the caution to keep me alive and not ruin a good thing.