It took me seconds to breathe.. Maybe minutes. Maybe hours. Who knows, I know, well maybe I don't. I don't breathe.
So, I guess I am telling you I can't exhale without forcing my mind to think "exhale. " it's nerve-racking and frustrating to eliminate the very extension to my future... my PAsSSt.
It's hard I tell you, to ponder over the moments of a better life when the devolution demon enters my dreams of evolving, so yeah it started a war... Within my mind.
I don't want my past to be the extension to my future but it's hard! Whoops! there's an excuse again...let me back track... Um, where was I? Oh, oh yeah, LIVING.
That's my main point--breathe- OK yeah there you go. It takes a mili second to change my mind into something negative or positive.
There's a engineering process in my mind right now, but don't worry, I got this, somehow, someway, I'm writing this and recognize the struggle.