Before you keep reading, I want to offer a little back story. As many of you know, I have several mental illnesses.
In high school, I was severely depressed, to the point where I attempted suicide more than once.
I always fantasized about turning off all the negative thoughts in my head with one last, loud bang. Luckily, I could never get my hands on a gun.
I want to make it very clear that I do not agree with suicide, nor am I promoting it, but I do think suicidal thoughts are something we need to talk about for a variety of reasons.
The most prevalent being that people who are suicidal think they are alone, that those horrible thoughts they are stuck with day in and day out are unique to them.
But, if we can start to break the stigma and show everyone that those thoughts, those horrible, horrible fantasies, the l'appel du vide, is somewhat common place,
I truly believe less and less people will actually act on those impulses. Basically.
it all boils down to showing suicidal people they aren't "crazy", that we understand and can empathize with their plight and then showing them all the reasons they should stay alive.
Anyway, here's a sad, emo poem about suicide.
Yearning for internal peace She kisses the cold metal.
The last sound she hears Is not the blast of the gunshot
The last sound she hears Is not the blast of the gunshot or the thud her body shudders out as her corpse hits the floor,
But that final choice,
But that final choice, the click of the trigger
But that final choice, the click of the trigger her eternal off switch
But that final choice, the click of the trigger her eternal off switch before complete and utter
But that final choice, the click of the trigger her eternal off switch before complete and utter silence.
And seriously, if you ever feel this way, even for a second, come find me. I will talk you off the ledge. I care about you.
When you think the world would be better off without you, I'll be here to tell you how amazing you are, even when you can't see it.
Remember, your story isn't over yet, you still have to cont;nue writing it.