Six years of innocence Six years of adolescence And six years of denial
A moment of hesitation Two thoughts of regrets And three weeks in the E.R.
Hallucinations and a false reality I see my eager friends and family And most importantly a happy You
A cold bed and your warm blanket Abundant pills lying next to a stupid decision It's obvious what happens next
I find myself unbearable, in an agonizing pain Ruptured mentality and physically numb Wondering if I'll ever go back to being normal
I find it harder to say now that I think about it My attempt to find answers in the afterlife I really tried to commit suicide...
Perhaps I have a purpose Perhaps we weren't meant to be Perhaps things'll work itself out
Days pass as I slumber A sigh of relief as I wake up unharmed Family by the bedside and machines beeping
An altered mentality and oddly refreshing I can't help but think of You as I lay in my hospital bed Can I apologize and have things go back to how they were?
Or is it too late? I find myself idle Barely staying afloat in a pool of "what ifs"