the no diving sign unlit and unseen. swim little boy feel the heavy current let it carry you farther out. you can't control this and that is fine.
you are strong. find pleasure in his smile today. find pleasure when he calls you beautiful but nothing else. You are beautiful and you are seen. You will someday come back to shore.
having aged having learned your anger and stubborn guise is not a forever mark there will be more men and more pools. more oceans to pull you out too deep. there will be more rivers down those freckled cheeks. there will be more failures.
you are allowed to fail little swimmer. don't breathe just yet.