Grow Up, Black Girl











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thougtfuldragon struggling to float, drowning w/o a boat
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A look into my life; a contemplative study. (This part is really long)

Note: This became really long, hence why I am breaking it into various parts.

Grow Up, Black Girl

Grow up Black girl,

Grow up Black girl, GROW UP, GROW UP

you stopped eating,

you stopped eating, your weight's dropping,

you stopped eating, your weight's dropping, but you

you stopped eating, your weight's dropping, but you show up,

you stopped eating, your weight's dropping, but you show up, show up

you swim at the pool after school, your days are long,

you're tired, you're aching, and you realize you're still

you're tired, you're aching, and you realize you're still alone

the boys make fun of swimming, say it's not a sport to make you h u r t

but you show them that you're strong and leave those words in the d i r t

you swim faster, you hit that growth spurt, you're taller than them now,

you're a top swimmer, it's been a year, you're feeling somewhat confident now

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all,

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all, you keep

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all, you keep fighting,

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all, you keep fighting, you keep

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all, you keep fighting, you keep diving,

but you're humble, you don't brag- your actions say it all, you keep fighting, you keep diving, you're really risking it all

the swim parents think you'll be something, olympic swimmer and all, but your dad doesn't think so and you start to feel

the swim parents think you'll be something, olympic swimmer and all, but your dad doesn't think so and you start to feel

s m a l l

you're still hardly eating, you're tired, you're only 12 at this point,

you're still hardly eating, you're tired, you're only 12 at this point, you turned 11 in the sixth grade and 12 in the seventh,

the woman your dad is with argues with him all the time,

the woman your dad is with argues with him all the time, she makes you feel like you not swimming is the primary thing on her mind,

it feels like you're not welcome there,

it feels like you're not welcome there, like you should leave,

it feels like you're not welcome there, like you should leave, like you should

d i e

you believe it too, maybe the world would be better off without you since she doesn't seem to like you

you believe it too, maybe the world would be better off without you since she doesn't seem to like you the boys will never like you

some girls don't even like you, but what of your friends, do they even like you?

you're not eating, you're not eating, how will you grow up, grow up?

you're not eating, you're not eating, are you stunting your growth, will you even get the chance to grow up, grow up?

At age 12 you thought, I'm over it, I'm through, I hope I don't make it to 16, I don't even know what to do

you wanted to kill yourself, but were still considerate. blood from a slit throat would make a mess

you must confess, how could you drown in a bath if your body and training could make you last?

you tried to stop eating, let not eating take you out, but a coach you respected said that they had a swimmer pass o u t,

it was before your time, but it still happened at the same pool

it was before your time, but it still happened at the same pool you didn't want to make a scene, reenact what they had gone through,

so you drank water,

water, it's all your body got, you started thinking more fat needed to be gone so u stopped

you don't care,

your body's no good anyway,

you're exhausted,

you're exhausted, mentally drained

End of Part 4. Yes, the last slide is my hair.

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