I thought we had a chance but oh I was wrong. Not just about your possible interest in me, also about your character in general. I would have never thought that you were that kind of person.
I thought you were different. I thought you were normal. The good kind of normal. You seemed to be. You seemed to be one of the good ones.
But you are just like the others, like those I dont like being around. You made me think one can be friends with bad people and still be good.
You made me think that one can act the way they act, do the same things that they do, be friends with them and still be good. Be better. But I guess I was wrong.
You are just like them and you share every bad behavior. I thought we had a chance like when you smiled at me in the hallway. During class. Laughed when I made a joke, just like I did in return.
I thought you meant it the way I did. But I guess you were just being the nice person that you are.
Smiling and joking with girls, while making out with others while being in love with someone completely different. I thought the small looks you gave me, meant more, showed your interest in me.
Apparently they didn't. I guess I just wanted them to. I thought you liked me, I thought we had a chance. But I was wrong. So so wrong about everything.
I guess everything I saw, everything I felt was nothing more than hopes and wishes. Everything has only been in my head. Not real. False. Imaginary.