Depression Feelings
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the_daydreamer
the_daydreamerHopeless girl💔Invisible to everyone😂
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I have been so off lately. This is just some feelings I couldn't say out loud.

Depression Feelings

Waking up is exhausting

Getting no sleep because of thoughts of your past mistakes

Play over and over again in your head

At first its not so bad

At first its not so bad You ignore it

You go on with your day telling yourself to forget it

At first its not so bad

At first its not so bad Their endless

Doing everyday tasks do not come easy

It constantly feels like your forcing yourself to do them

It constantly feels like your forcing yourself to do them Just to get through another day

At first you denie it all

No one wants to admit they have a mental disease

No one wants to admit they have a mental disease Or even think about the idea

So instead over and over again

We tell ourselves

"It’s a bad day"

"It's a bad day" "It's a bad day"

"It's a bad day" "It's a bad day" "It's a bad day"

But how many bad day's is it going to take

But how many bad day's is it going to take For you to realize that nothing went wrong

Nothing bad even happened

But slowly you come the realization

That you were just generally not happy

Running into people and them asking how you're doing

Running into people and them asking how you're doing Is terrifying

Because they have most likely asked you this before

And yes maybe once or twice or even three times

They are actually willing to listen to what you are actually going through

But after that

But after that Than what

"I like hanging out with her but all she ever does is bring the mood down."

"I love her but she's such a mood kill."

"She's so different now."

"Different indeed."

So we pretend

"Everything is fine, great actually. Thanks for asking."

You just know you'll end up lying

And again and again Telling people these things

When in reality you aren’t fine or great or honestly even okay

The minute you turn from that conversation you can feel your body drop

Tears start forming in your eyes

Because your putting on a social mask for others

Only because its easier than constantly feeling like a burden to them

It doesn't matter anyway

You'll never be able to put into words about how you actually feel

You feel like in little ways you show people you're not doing okay

You're crying out for help

But no one notices that you have been a little bit off

Until… you hit rock bottom

Its like watching yourself go crazy

And have no control over the emotions

Slowly but surly it feels like your drowning

And everyone is just watching

You feel alone

You feel alone Confused

You feel alone Confused And empty

It's like the world around you continues

But yours just somehow stops

You have to watch everyone else smile and be happy

While you just sit there

Numb and confused

And the worst part is

Going to sleep at night doesn't help

Because you know you'll just wake up in the morning

And do it all over again

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