TW: mention of suicide, nothing graphic but its part of the story
Today was shit.
I had forgotten to do 2 homework assignments and nearly died.
Then, in art, we did nothing cause the teacher never shows up so we are always working on art that I've already finished.
After, math kicked my ass.
Then walking home,
this girl (we will call her Kate) who I have been in love with for like a year usually walks home with me.
but she got admitted back into a mental ward for suicide watch because she is suicidal but she hasn't attempted anything recently (I think).
I'm really worried because I care so deeply for this girl because she makes me so happy and she's so beautiful she has the best hair and her eyes are the perfect brown.
Plus, her lips are gorgeous shes stunning. On top of that, she is the best person I've ever met. She has this magical way of making you feel loved and happy and like you actually are/will be something.
Anyways that's not the point and shes never going to feel the same as me anyway.
I probably won't see her for a week. maybe 3. I miss her what if it's my fault she is there?
Won't hear from her either while shes there so guess neither of us will know.
life is just really kicking my ass.