It's been awhile since I've thought back to when I had a chance to act, and wished I'd been more violent than I was,
Or since I've been so happy it felt like the joy was physically building up in my lungs, slowly choking me.
It's been awhile since I couldn't possibly imagine myself being more fulfilled in life, because I was constantly on cloud nine,
And It's been awhile since I've really had a meaningful conversation with anyone.
It's been awhile since I've felt the need to apologize about something someone had a problem with me doing.
It's been quite some time since I've spoken to one of my friends.
It's been awhile since I've really laughed.
I can't recall the last time I've really felt like myself.