I desire to help people by telling my story and I yearn to give my readers even just a sparkle of hope.
I want my story to be heard but most importantly I want to educate anyone willing to listen on mental health and how the things you chose to surround yourself with in your daily life effect it.
I believe that just because you are predisposed to mental illness doesn't mean you have to live a dark and gloomy, miserable, "I'm a victim" mentality kind of life.
You can make so many small changes on your own everyday just by adjusting things as small as lighting,
colors and sounds you chose to surround yourself with to what you choose to put in your body. All of which play a huge role in mental health.
Unfortunately when I was growing up people didn't talk about mental illness as openly and it wasn't as common of a discussion as it is now.
I never felt I could 100% trust anyone with my ALL of my thoughts, ecspecially a doctor.
Just the thought that if I communicated my thoughts out-loud made them "come to life" scared me enough to completely shut down emotionally and live in my head up until the last 9 months of
I guess you can say I am pretty much self taught when it comes to how I allow things to effect my mental state.
The majority of the information I will share and apply to my life today is based on my own experiences, taking & studying notes,
studying countless professional websites and being in and out of therapy since age 5.
If my story can postively impact just one person who reads it I will feel an overmeling sense of achievement.
Ultimately my lifetime dream is to be genuinely happy and full of life.
I wanted to become and have slowly started becoming one of those people who look forward to waking up early every morning and making the most out of their day being productive both mentally
and physically because it has begun to be what makes me feel whole and happy.
I have come to a point in my life where I have decided I want to be happy, I will be happy and I myself will make that happend.
So I began to do so and will continue to do so to ensure I fulfill that goal.
When I am trying to understand something - whether it is how to put something together or listening to a story someone is telling me I cannot help but pay attention to the details.
The details of your story are the most important part and If I do not understand where something started, how can I possibly understand where and what it is today?
My brain just can't move on until it knows the details and If I do not understand how something comes to be I lose interest, focus and I just get the urge to move on.
It is imperitive for me to be aware of all relevant details to a situation. Now with saying that.......
I must be sure to include all the details I feel are relevant to what has shaped me into to who I am today. Let's start from the beginning.
I sure do look forward to seeing you all again at the end of my book.
From a very young age I struggled with mental illness and as I grew up - I started to realize how different I was than everyone else.
When I say different I don't just mean I like different brands of clothes as my fellow classmates. I mean it was if my brain was wired very differently then anyone I had met.