Pulling away from you is hard, for long years your synthetic silky arms have wrapped around my body
Bringing me refuge - until the pain ebbed away.
Survival was key - and living life a way to navigate through a heart broken. Smashed... Destroyed .
You picked up the pieces, placing them neatly back into the pattern where they belong,
The picture made whole again by your steady hands that were designed to keep me in place
Molding into my very core - I wrestle to remember where I start and you end...
Like a host I feed you the very emotions I try to escape - and you devour them with ease,
Your appetite growing with every taste, and I embrace the nothing - for I know no other way.
Peeling you off opens old wounds that have not gone away - weeping scars revealed in the light of a new day
Your mask offers hope with the pretence that everything is o.k
- it scares me to live without you but time calls for the end of charades.
I've forgotten what it is to be me, to feel, to love, to fear , to breathe....
without the numbness of your embrace that envelops my entirety.