I came through the door. wanting to fall to the floor. My heart was pounding. It was surrounding. I took a couple of deep breaths. I took my blazer and purse and hung it on the coat rack. I almost had a heart attack.
I looked over and saw you sitting in the living room. you looked tired. I know you just got home. You called me but I couldn't pick up the phone. I let it ring at the tone.
I ran by your side. wanting to cry "I did something bad". I said half expecting you to hate me. I wiped up my tears and pushed down my fears. I sat on the couch next to you. As close as my body would allow me to. I was shaking. Baking.
you turned to face me. I could see the confusion in your eyes. it was the fact that I hurt you that made me want to cry. I couldn't speak. I don't want things to change between us. All because I broke the trust. but I know things will.
I look down as you take my hands. You explain to me how you'll always be my man, but you don't understand what I've done...well at least we had a good run. We had lots of fun "I have to go". I mutter. I get up and run to our room. We had so much here together. We stuck together no matter the weather
what was I thinking? How could I make such a mistake. this is going to be a lot for you to take. I can't do this. Not right now. I need to go. I don't have time to let you know. maybe it's better that way. I don't even know what to say
I ran to my side of the closet. I grabbed my suit case. I threw as much as I could in it with pace. I could feel your hands on my shoulder. They felt as heavy as a boulder. I turned around to face you. it's the least that I could do . Knowing all that I put you through
you helped me get up. I sat on the bed. You left the room. You came back with a cup. I sat it down. "I don't deserve your care". I said. You looked even more confused. I'm the one that's gonna lose. your a good person .
and I love you. I do. You sat down next to me. You know somethings up. "I ruined everything". I say. Hoping that you'll still love me at the end of the day. "What happened". You say with a frustrated look on your face. I can already tell that you know the case. You scoot over, I can no longer feel your warm embrace. Not a trace. "Listen it was one time"
but I still feel like I committed a crime. I try to hold your hand. you flinch away as if my hands are rough like sand. "Please James". I say. "enough with the games ". you say sharply. I close my eyes. To my surprise, you rise. I sit there. "I can't do this anymore". You say before going. I listen as you close the door. Now I feel worse then before.
now I know you know, and I'm ashamed. I'm the one to blame, and my heart is inflamed.