over time, i have learned to hate a fair few.
the first girl i ever loved,
just to name some examples.
so many people tell me “you have to forgive them eventually”
well, i say bullshit.
i don’t have to forgive her,
she caused me pain and damage.
i’m still suffering from the effects of her reign.
i don’t have to forgive him,
i see him weekly and every week, he just makes me feel like shit over and over again.
he makes me cry, he makes me want to hit myself.
i don’t have to forgive them.
i’m allowed to hate them, and i don’t have to “get over it”
in time my hate might fade but it will always be there.
the memories of pain that she caused.
“i only said yes to going out with you because i thought you would kill yourself”
“i wasn’t leading you on, you’re just obsessive”
“she’s such a freak”
she doesn’t deserve my forgiveness.
to this day, he is still causing me so much pain.
“you’re such an ungrateful brat”
“you’re such a dick”
he doesn’t deserve my forgiveness.
don’t let anyone tell you that “you have to forgive them eventually”
because i’m here to tell you,