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sincerelybee
sincerelybee 15▪This Is Happy▪Anthony▪
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-This is going to be me venting, this may be slightly triggering-

EMOTIONS

-This is going to be me venting, this may be slightly triggering-

EMOTIONS EMOTIONS EMOTIONS I HATE EMOTIONS

Why can't they just leave me alone??

I'm always overrun with sadness and dysphoria but I just get so good at hiding it.

It's always there, and I don't know how to get rid of it.

my DYSPHORIA is so bad sometimes,

just a few days ago, I had a complete breakdown because I was sitting in the hallway of a hotel in a dress that I had been sitting in for a good 6 hours and I couldn't stand it anymore.

I broke down crying and all I wanted to do was claw at my arms to get myself out of my own skin, but I couldn't.

It was my dad's wedding and I couldn't ruin it for him,

no matter how much I hate him.

I am so uncomfortable in my own skin and I just want to get out of it sometimes.

the SADNESS I experience is horrible,

my insecurities are rooted so deep into my mind that no matter how hard I try,

I can't get rid of them.

People always ask me if I'm HAPPY

I'm happy sometimes,

I'm a happy person mostly,

it's just the days where I've held in my emotions for too long,

and my dad tells me, once again, that he doesn't believe in me,

and I'm reminded that I asked for therapy a year ago,

and he refused to consent to getting me therapy because he didn't believe I needed it.

FATHER I NEED IT MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.

I NEED HELP.

I CAN'T DO THIS BY MYSELF,

IF I KEEP TRYING TO KEEP MYSELF FROM BREAKING, I WILL BREAK SO QUICKLY.

I need help,

I need help,

I need to hurt myself,

I need to feel something other than sadness.

I need to feel my fingernails scratching my skin,

I know I'm not healthy,

I know I'm not pretty,

I know I'm not gonna make it anywhere in life,

I NEED HELP.

I'm sorry for this, I'm not going to read this back, It could hold a million mistakes, But I can't get myself to read this back.

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