i sit on my bed, legs bouncing up and down, my phone next to me.
i glance at my phone, no messages.
a choking feeling is in my throat.
i'm going to cry.
i'm holding my head in my hands,
i keep repeating,
no tears, no crying, no tears, no crying,
it didn't work.
tears ran down my cheeks,
the choking feeling still present,
as i try to hold back tears.
i check my phone,
a text message,
and i sob even more,
it's not my place to be upset.
i can not cry every time someone is slightly upset with me.
text messages continue to flow in,
from a single person.
i mumble, through tears,
i lay on the ground,
sobbing, the choking feeling goes away.