tonight
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shelbysagebreathe.
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tonight

by shelbysage

I stood there feeling so empty, and every breath felt like the first breath you take when you step out into the snow, icy and sharp.

There was so much I wanted to say as I could feel my heart breaking, but all I could manage to push past the lump in my throat was “I still love you.”

Love is not excitement, it is not breathlessness, it is not sex, it is not the desire to constantly talk to someone. That is being “in love.”

Love is what is left after you lose that breathlessness and desire. Love is how much you still feel after the being ‘in love’ has faded.

Love is not the promises, it’s why you’re still there when they’re broken.

Many people have stepped in and out of my life but he was the first person to take pieces of me when he left, and I couldn’t let go.

I came back, and when it didn’t work I blamed myself. I let my confidence and happiness shatter like glass hitting the floor.

I couldn’t wrap my head around the idea that maybe he was only ever ‘in love’ with me, maybe he never really loved me.

It took me time to realize that it wasn’t me who went wrong, and I don’t blame him. I gave everything I could have, but maybe it wasn’t meant to last.

Love is such an overused word, and because of this I believe we are beginning to let it’s real meaning slip past us. Love is a feeling that reaches the deepest parts of us.

Sometimes it doesn’t work and the ‘in love’ goes away, but that real love won’t ever die out.

I ask myself often if it was worth it, all the late night tears and pain, and I want to be angry and regret it, but I can’t.

One day we will find someone who’s fire for us burns forever, and it may not be the first person you light yourself up for, but that is just another story to add to the tapestry that is our life.

And that is worth it.

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shelbysagebreathe.
a year agoReply
@bernardtwindwil thank you, being able to see the difference is a long journey, but I'm getting there.

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a year agoReply
This is not only well written, you have also uncovered some hidden truths. My favorite line was, "I couldn’t wrap my head around the idea that maybe he was only ever ‘in love’ with me, maybe he never really loved me. " The realization of the difference in "in love" and "love" is critical. Great workm of art and self-discovery.

shelbysagebreathe.
a year agoReply
@therinamartins thank you so much, I really appreciate such positive feedback

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a year agoReply
This is an amazing story. So heartfelt, so truthful, so simple yet powerful at the same time. You have captured the essence of true love is this story and I'm really proud of you. Some people don't see that love is more than just the initial attraction. But it's like you said, what happens after the desire, attraction, and breathlessness disappear? It's what is left that matters. You have stated what I believe in the 15 slides, and im honored to know you. Keep up the good work! If you ever need any help, I'll be more than glad to help you. Just find me on Twitter or tag me in a story and come and help you.

shelbysagebreathe.
a year agoReply
@marino heartbreak.

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a year agoReply
i love this so much <3 what inspired it?